SPONTANEITY

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

I moved to wordpress guys... Less hassle kasi mae-edit dun.. Try to visit me there, okies??

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Thursday, July 12, 2007

UNDER CONSTRUCTION

Parang naaawa naman ako sa firefox users na bumibisita sa blog kong ito, kagaya ni mengay na madalas maatake ng virus sa internet explorer. Kaya eto ako nag-iisip na naman na magpalit ng skin.

Duguan na naman ako sa pag-eedit nito. Sa mga mapapadaan pasensiya, UNDER CONSTRUCTION na naman itong site ko.

Labels: blog layp

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Monday, July 9, 2007

naloka ako sa mga kamukha ko daw... eto yun...

bahala na kayong humusga...

Labels: etcetera

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Sunday, July 8, 2007

CAUGHT BETWEEN HARRASSED, NGARAG AT STRESS

What a week! Ngaragan kung ngaragan, from moving to another place from sandamakmak na paperworks. Ok na yun kesa naman nagrereklamo ako ng walang ginagawa, di ba mas pangit naman yun?

Nakalipat na kami sa bago naming kuta [i wanted to upload pictures here pero kahit yun hindi ko maasikaso] so far... keri naman, mas madaming space kesa sa dati naming place, may privacy na din kasi may sarili na kaming room [roommates ko sis ko at si direk], pag may bisita pwedeng magkulong ka na lang kung hindi mo feel makipagsocialize.

Mas naramdaman ko ngayon ang pagod at pressure ng pagmomove at one place to another, sobra siyang nakakapagod, kung tutuusin konti lang ang gamit namin pero parang ang dami-dami. Gusto ko na din magpasalamat sa lahat ng nakigulo at tumulong para kahit papano napagaan ang paglilipat namin.

~mengay
~SO ni sister
~BF [as in bestfried] ng SO ni sister

Got to go back to work! madaliang entry lang ito. Madami pang dapat tapusin. Babu!

Labels: random

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Friday, July 6, 2007

O'CRAYOLA EFFECT

Lately nagiging masyado akong emotional, konting kibot maiiyak. It must be my raging hormones. Grabe, parang lagi silang nagbabakbakan. Ang hirap talaga maging girlaloo, alipin ka ng hormones wala ka namang magagawa dahil kasama na yun sa package ng mga babae. Minsan iniisip ko bakit ba lahat ng pahirap e sa amin ibinigay, e siyempre sino ba naman ako para kwestiyunin ang Diyos kung bakit nga ba ganun?

Oh well... Iembrace ko na lang.

Labels: girlhood

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Monday, July 2, 2007

CHANGES

Life's been hectic these past few days, bukod pa sa navirusan ang computer ko pasaway na mga virus ang kukulit. Ok na naman siya sa awa ng Diyos.

I'd been very observant nitong mga nakaraang pangyayari and i did come up with the idea that A LOT has changed. As in. Super. Naloka ako sa ilan. Nalungkot ako sa iba. Naalarma naman ako sa ilan.

I do believe, [pang miss universe ang drama?!] that the only constant thing in life is change, at in fairness damang-dama ko siya ngayon.

Were moving to another house, that's for me is major, pero excited naman ako I couldn't wait na pagandahin yung bahay. Mamimiss ko yung dati pero ganun talaga, kailangan mag-move on kami din naman ang magbebenefit sa paglipat namin kasi ang resulta nun pagluwag konti sa finances namin.
Nagtatanggal na'ko ng bangs. almost two years ko din siya minaintain ha. Hindi pa nagsusulputan ang mga sandamakmak na nakabangs e nakabangs nako so it's about time na tanggalin ko na siya kasi napapansin ko na kahit tindera sa bakery ay naka-bangs na ngayon.
In terms of lovelife [this is good], were starting to get serious of planning for the FUTURE. Building a family, excited na'ko I can't wait to be Mrs.R someday. I just hope that it is sooner than we planned it to make it happen.
After more or less two years, si sister natuto na ulit gumarutay. Masaya kasi alam kong nag-start na siya to really move on. Pero alam ko hindi pa siya lubos na nag-heheal after such a traumatic break-up it's a positive start that she's starting to feel again. Pero ayoko muna isipin na it's something serious kagaya ng iniisip ng iba, kilala ko si sister at ayaw ko siya ipressure, specially nagka-issue siya sa BFF niya. Threaten sa changes na maaring mangyari sa fiendship nila.
I'm being optimistic day by day by day. Aba! major change din ito. Trulili! After a major heartaches, family issues trauma, lost of a loved one [my dad], financial downfall, career/job problems, eto ako... nagsisimula ng maging positive ang tingin sa life.

Yung mga inenimerate ko e yung major changes lang na napansin ko pwera na yung maliliit na nagay na alam ko namang hindi ninyo paguukulan ng interes. Keri na yun. Oh well... as far as I'm concern magaganda pa din naman ang pagbabagong yan as long as we know sa tayo nanggaling after every change. It's a must to trackback why there is a change and why do we need a change, just to put us in the right perspective. Ayt?

Labels: layp

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Wednesday, June 27, 2007

LAYP IS BYUTIPUL...

Attempt ito to make a movie review, kung sakaling lumabas na parang nakikipagkwentuhan lang ako sa lasing pasensiya na trying hard lang.

I watched LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL (La Vita è Bella), starred and directed by Roberto Benigni last week, napagdiskitahan ko na din panoodin ang CD na ipinahiram sa'kin ng friend ko more than a year ago [sorry MC kung kelan naging busy saka nagkaroon ng panahon para sa movie na nireccomend mo. hihihi]. It's an Italian film who won the Oscar's Best Foreign film.

It's a story of a simple man Guido(Roberto Benigni) who moved to city leading a simple life as a waiter whose owned by his uncle. He fell inlove with a socialite named Dora(Nicolleta Braschi) who after a roller coaster event and ligawan portion became his wife and they had a son named Joshue.

I was amazed of the spontaneity of the story line, it's humorous pero hindi pilit. i find myself laughing every five minutes, although may pagka slapstick ang ibang eksena pero keri naman ng mga dialogues.

Another thing is the intensity ng love ni Guido para kay Dora, i find it cute everytime he greets dora "Bonjourno Principessa!!" at any time of the day.

It was the late part of World WarII when the Italian-Jews were abducted by Nazi's including Guido and his son Joshue and since Dora is not a Jew she volunteered to go along.

Life is beautiful even in the midst of advesities, that's what the movie wants to impart to us, especially on the part that Guido suceeded on sheilding Joshue from the emotional trauma of what had been happening on them. I find it unbelievable at first that that kind of gruelling experience can not affect a child but Guido succeeded.

The last part of the movie for me was the very touching part, I was nearly to tears when Guido died but nevertheless he fulfilled his promise to his son to win the first place and get that real tank that Joshue wanted (although i didn't found out if Joshue are able to bring home that tank).

Life is indeed beautiful especially when you love unselfishly. Hay... nagsisisi ako why I didn't watch it earlier. I will watch it again definitely, and I think the movie deserves the Oscar's Best Picture.

Labels: rebyu

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Friday, June 22, 2007

BLOGSPHERE

ngaragan days ngayon dito sa office, as usual mga cramming beauties kaming taga-opisina. may surveilance/audit kasi kami next week kaya eto kinukuba ang mga sarili para makapasa sa standard ng auditor. full-blooded pinoy talaga.

pero siyempre kahit na ka-busyhan days ngayon, i should find time to update this blog [sorry boss priority ito, hahaha!].

been blog hopping for the past week for two reasons, una para makahanap ng mga blogs na permanente kong babasahin, mababaw lang naman ang criteria ko sa pagpili e. eto yung mga yun.

bukod sa interesante at malaman [given na yun sa karamihan ng mga blogs] kailangan may sense of humor naman.
kaya ko maka-relate.
impression ko sa author.

yung huli pinaka-importante kasi madali akong ma-turn-off sa mga suplada/suplado blogger especially newbie ako field na'to, kahit na elite blogger ka pa i wouldn't waste my time on your page, para sa akin basura yun.

second reason was... wala lang, para lang masabi ko na dalawa ang reason ko. hehehe.

sa'king pagba-bloghop, nasiyahan naman ako... feeling ko nakakilala ako ng iba-ibang nilalang. napadaan din ako sa tinatawag nilang elite blogger [ansosyal diba? kahit sa blog world may mga leveling]. ok lang... keri.

nakapili din ako ng mangilan-ngilan, hopefully i find myself being freinds with them *big smiles*. special mention na si rho-anne, kasi warm ang pagkakawelcome niya sa'kin.

may isa pa pala akong napuna, most of the interesting blogs i've encountered are authored by pinoys abroad. it's either they are living there for good or they just have moved there. hmm.. factor siguro talaga ang kalungkutan at homesickness para maging inspired ka to write.

oh well... ayoko naman na malungkot [although hobby ko din yun] para lang makapagsulat ng something interesting dito, i guess i should stick on what my blog title is all about... SPONTANEITY.

Labels: blog layp

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Wednesday, June 20, 2007

CONSISTENCY EKEK

ilang araw ko ng napupuna na napaka-inconsistent ko, totoo walang istir, seryosohan.

isa pa naman yun sa ini-establish ko sa buhay ko, ang consistency feeling ko everything falls into place once you've been consistent sa lahat ng aspeto ng buhay mo. pag consistent ka [wag lang sa pagiging tanga ha] yung mindset mo sa mga dapat mong gawin at puntahan buo.

heto ako ngayon tralala, actually hindi naman talaga big deal ang mga issues ko sa buhay, kumbaga magawan ko lang drama ang dull kong life dito sa ibabaw ni mother earth, parang feeling ko lang gawing tragic para maisapelikula, oh anyway balik sa consistency...

umpisahan ko sa blog na ito ha, mula sa very first entry napaka-inconsistent na mula sa skin, font, at topics. feeling ko hindi ako makakakilala ng avid readers. how sad. gusto ko pa naman dumami ang circle of ka-blogs ko.

pangalawa sa work, feeling ko nawawalan na'ko ng gana. dati ipinangako ko na i-eenjoy ko siya pero gusto ko pa din naman i-enjoy e, pero minsan nabobore ako, pero like ko talaga siyang maenjoy, o diba napaka-inconsistent?!

sunod sa friendship, dito sobra ako talagang inconsistent aminado ako dun. madami na akong friends na hindi nakukumusta, hindi nadadalaw. kukumustahin ko sila once pero hindi nagkakaron ng consistency sa communication. hay. miss ko pa naman sila. i miss those days na feeling ko bahagi ako ng friendship. i promised na irerehabilitate ko yun pero hindi ko naman magawa. i really suck.

naiinis ako sa sarili ko. as in... parang wala akong nagagawang tama. pati sa pagba-budget ng pera sablay pa din!

kailangan masolusyunan ko ito as soon as possible. hindi pwedeng ganito na lang. kailangan lang siguro ng matinding will power and perseverance. aja!

buti na lang may isang consistent pa sa buhay ko, ang loveydubs ko. consistent sa pagtibok ang puso ko *kilig*, kahit mahirap, kahit malayo siya, consistent yung love [o diba ang taray!]. tama na yun para kahit papano magawa ang mga dapat kong gawin, itama ang mga dapat kong itama, at gawing consistent ang mga inconsistent sa buhay ko.

Labels: layp

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DAYM

paano ba ako magiging productive pag ganitong lagi akong nakatanga sa computer. lumipat nga ako ng blog wala naman akong mai-blog. para akong nasa outer space. daym.

pramis magpo-post ako ng something, basta something...

Labels: tralala moments

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Sunday, June 17, 2007

WEEKEND EKSENA

It was a long weekend, pero saya naman. All is well that ends well sa’min ni SO. Happy face na ulit ang drama ng beauty ko.

Nung Sunday naman nagliwaliw ako sa mall, kinailangan ko kasi bumuli ng bagong shoes, medyo naghihingalo na kasi ang sapatos kong luma.

Flat na open toe ang nabili ko, so far... masaya naman ako kahit medyo masakit sa bukong-bukong keri na kasi cute naman siya sa hindi ko kagandahang paa.

Hindi ko lang kinakaya ang mga eksena ditto sa office. Ngarag ang mga eksena at ang theme for the day topak galore. Kakaloka talaga, kami ang gawing outlet sa mga hinaing nila sa buhay, pero keri pa din kiber na lng baka kasi pag kinunsumi ko ang sarili ko maging kamukha ko ang mga chakang mga dragon ditto sa office.

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Friday, June 15, 2007

SOUL SEARCHING

most of the people i know [that's around .00095% of philippines population] is making a big fuss about the "S" word. the phenomenon called SOULMATE.

what's up with that?? and what is it anyway? could we describe it the same manner we describe classmate, orgmate, batchmate, officemate, seatmate, or coffeemate?

what the hell is my point by the way? let me just put it this way, i have a half-hearted faith about this kind of thing. my romantic and sentimental bone believes that it actually exist but the ampalaya [read: bitter] veins in me says it's a crap.

seriously, i still couldn't digest it. i mean this whole concept of soulmate chuva ek-ek. i always have this 'huh?' look on my face everytime someone ask if i do beleive in it or have i found 'my' soulmate? my usual reaction, of course is my perpetual laugh-then-change-the-topic style [on that case i must thank my power of controlling the biatch in me].

according to Jaime Licauco author of "Soulmates, Karma, And Reincarnation", soulmate is the the perfect partner, the other half of yourself whose persona aura blends harmoniously with yours. two souls who shared the same blueprint of identity. two souls who have become so close together in a series of incarnation that they perfectly complement each other in their journey through series of lives.

oh now i get it.

the concept itself speaks why most of us are sucker of this soulmate thing. it tickles our romantic bone [why am i using the word bone??]. the idea that there is someone out there who is 'perfect' for us, that one person who would complement us. we love the hope that it gives us knowing that somewhere along the way we would bump into that 'perfect' person and live happily ever after [sounds like a stereotyped romantic flick].

as a consistent bitterness queen, i refuse to fully believe that soulmate exist, for the sole reason of FEAR, that i might end up in a loony bin on three main causes:

if my soulmate decided not to show up, and after 50 years of waiting suddenly there will come a theory that soulmate doesn't exist.
if in case that i already found my soulmate but happens to be the greatest jerk this universe has ever produced plus he have an ego as huge as this planet [hey, no one says a soulmate can't be a jerk!].
if in case i already found my soulmate but has an expiration date, meaning he would be expiring and disappear after a given period of time. 'best before end of [insert date here]' is tattoed on his forehead.

some says that soulmate doesn't always have to be the opposite gender [wait! what about the third sex!?]. it does not connotes romantic inclination all the time. your soulmate could be your terror math teacher, your freeloader friend, nosy officemate, perverted boss or even the neurotic security guard of your subdivision as long as you feel that your souls and spirits share the strong bond, sense of familiarity and compatibility.

so how does one will recognize his/her soulmate? is it as easy as looking for a pair of jeans? or as gruelling as teaching a pig to bark? they say that 'you'll just know', you will just feel it, for some in an instant but for some in a long process of knowing each other and discovering compatibilities.

i know i sounded so sarcastic [no, i was sarcastic]. don't get me wrong... i was just pretending to be this tough-slash-hypocrite witch because deep within me i know i give in to my romantic and sentimental bone.

oh well... have you found yours?? coz i think i have found mine.

Labels: love

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Thursday, June 14, 2007

ampangit pala talaga sa pakiramdam yung matutulog ka na merong problemang hindi nase-settle.

nag-away kami ni SO kagabi... kaya ko naman palampasin kung hindi lang sa binitawan nyang salita.

"ewan ko sa'yo."

automatic ang pagpatak ng tears na pinipilit kong pigilan. for seventeen months i don't think i deserve those words. alam ko may magsasabi na ambabaw nun, pero masakit talaga yun.

nag-promise ako na kung ano man ang problema pag-uusapan namin, pero sa pagkakataong ito gusto ko muna manahinik at mag-isip.

nakakapagod din to hang on... nakakapagod.

Labels: bleak

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Wednesday, June 13, 2007

WAY BACK

for two years of blogging hindi ko inakala na i can share something sensible to those who find time to read some of my entries.

bago pa lang ako sa blogger world [i mean here, sa domain na ito] so pakiramdam ko nangangapa ako ulit...

here are some of my favorite entries from my friendster blog, gusto ko sana i-summarize kaya lang nakakatamad so click-click nyo nalang.

[note: entries are all in chronological order]

feel free to read my other entries.

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when kissing is a crime?

diko kinaya ang litratong ito...

gretchen and john kissing?!?

nanalaki ang malaki ko ng mata last sunday nung una kong makita ito sa Showbiz Central [tutukan mo dahil taga showbiz central ka].

OMG! as ing OMG!

my first reaction was: malandi talaga si gretchen!

pasensiya kung naging mapanghusga ako, e kasi naman kahit anong katwiran ang ibigay niya the fact that she kissed another man aside from her partner/husband/jowa [whatever they call it] e bad, that's I-N-F-E-D-E-L-I-T-Y.

but after awhile after the initial reaction napag-isip-isip ko na baka hindi na siya HAPPY sa current relationship niya. Hay, mahirap talaga mapaligiran ng tukso they all come in all forms and sizes e sa pagkakataong ito sa katauhan ni John Estrada na in fairness e yummy naman.

minus all the controversies... they look good together, actually kinilig pa nga ako sa candidness ng picture. oh well... abangan natin ang maglalabasan pang issues kakabit ng echoserang picture na ito.

Labels: entertainment

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Friday, June 8, 2007

napagbalakang mag-ulam ng buffalo wings [echos!version namin ng pritong pakpak ng manok], at hindi ko kinaya ang eksena namin ni manang [tindera ng maliit na sar-sari store].

....

jojie: pabile...

manang: ano yun? *medyo disoriented*

jojie: meron po kayong Cheken breading?

manang: *tulala at hindi naintindihan ang sinabi ko*

jojie: *nataranta't napahiya* ay! chicken briding![prinonounce na parang bisayang bading]

manang: *mukhang nalilinawan na ang pag-iisip pero hindi pa rin makapag-react*

jojie: *sobrang pahiya* chicken breading po pala.

at ng sa wakas ay tumama na ako...

manang: wala...

o diba ang saya?

Labels: tralala moments

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Thursday, June 7, 2007

i'm in a bleak mood recently... i dunno why, maybe i know i just don't want to address it.

i'm loving my independence but i'm starting to hate my routines. i don't want to look at life as monotonous and gloomy as this.

i guess i've to perk things up. =)

Labels: ramblings

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Sunday, June 3, 2007

BONSAI

I don't know kung bakit sa dinami-dami ng mapapagtripan ko bonsai pa.

I suddenly developed this interest sa bonsai. I've got to buy one, pero in fairness hindi naman siguro siya demanding alagaan.

gusto ko ng Bonsai!!!

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Friday, June 1, 2007

AM I REALLY PATIENT?

"Good things comes for those who wait."

-charlotte
Charlotte's Web

Patience I guess is my greatest virtue. Kung sa pahabaan lang ng pasensiya siguro pwede akong isali sa contest. Keri ko i-control ang inis, inip at galit.

Although I must admit na may mga krung-krung moments din ako lalo na pag nag-PMS ako, mas mahirap kaya i-control ang raging hormones kaysa nagaalburutong boss.

I've been through a lot of bad weathers and I must say that my patience was what make my sanity still intact.

Pero ngayon, mukhang sinusubukan ang pasensiya ko.

~Office

I have high tolerance on people who loves to bitch around, pero hindi ang hypocrisy. Nagkalat yun dito, all around the corners.

~Life

I know that life is unfair, but I can’t understand why on some strange ways it’ll push you to your limits. Dapa ka na, aapakan ka pa.

~Love

You will learn to love, then learn to cherish, then learn to trust, and then learn to get scared. Love does make you walk in the edge, but you still love…

~Politics

One word, SOS.

~Friends

Magrereklamo pag nawawala ka, magrereklamo pag hindi ka mahagilap, magrereklamo pag hindi mo napagbigyan, e paano pag sila ang nawala, hindi mo mahagilap at hindi mo mapagbigyan? *held my hands high up*

O diba… hindi ko alam kung kaya ko pa maging proud sa ipinagmamalaki ko ‘patience is a virtue’ na mantra.

But then…

Patience is really is a virtue.

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Tuesday, May 22, 2007

KERI

Parang mga hinahabol ng kabayo ang mga tao dito sa office!

May audit kasi bukas ang isang customer namin kaya heto were practising the art of procrastination. Full-blooded pinoy talaga, kung kailan may time saka hindi ginagawa ang mga dapat gawin, hobby gawing haggard ang mga sarili pag padating na ang deadlines.

Parang life [talagang may maisingit lang na makabuluhan] kung kailan matsutsugi na saka naman gagawa ng kabutihan galore. Ampangit diba?

E hindi naman sa nagmamalinis ako, kasi guilty din naman ako sa cramming at procrastination, pero nakakainis pala ang mga ganitong eksena. Oh well, dito ko lang naman kayang magreklamo hindi ko pa kayang mawalan ng trabaho.

Three months pa lang ako dito sa company na pinapasukan ko so far nae-enjoy ko naman . Keri naman, problema lang talaga dito ang pagpapanggap na may sistema pero wala naman talaga. May boss na may extra-curicular activities at may boss na mahadera atmay feeling boss.

Pero keri pa din. Sana huwag dumating yung point na hindi ko na siya naeenjoy. Mahirap maghanap ng trabaho. So... Keri.

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